MISSING YOU IS A GAME FOR ME, AND I SCORE HIGH EVERYTIME!

MISSING YOU IS A GAME FOR ME, AND I SCORE HIGH EVERYTIME!

This is what I used to say to him. What is it like to miss someone? Can missing someone be a game? Why do you ever miss anyone? Is missing someone a result of not having anything more interesting to do or feel or is it genuinely your raw feeling of wanting to be with someone. Always makes me wonder!

For me, whenever I find it difficult to say, this very minute, I am finding it difficult to stay without you, I say I miss you. It is that deep, it is that strong. It is definitely not just a bunch of words out of one’s mouth.

The feeling of ‘missing’ or should I say the emotion of ‘missing’. What is the right thing to say? Is it just a feeling, just something inside you or is it strong enough to be an emotion? What do you really miss about this person when you say you miss him/her? The physical presence of that person ofcourse, but what else? The way that person makes you feel? The way the person makes you comfortable? The way the person expresses his/her love to you? The touch? The hug?

Makes me wonder, is loving and missing also another one of our many selfish acts? Do we love so that we can be loved in return?

But, this feeling or emotion or anything else you fancy calling it, becomes quite difficult to manage. How do you even get close to managing it when your body is craving for a hug, when you are dying to be touched? When your hand aches just to be able to touch that person once. Sometimes it is like being on drugs, this feeling or emotion or whatever. You kind of get used to it. But what is this anyways - A genuine emotion or just a trick by your hormones?

But Genuinely, I miss you when I am sick, when I am low, when I am happy, when I am angry, When I win, When I lose, when it rains and when it pains. Maybe that is what this is all about. You are a part of me, today and forever. And this realization is what I pronounce in words as 'I miss you'.